Definition of COMPEL
: to drive or urge forcefully or irresistibly : Ex. hunger compelled him to eat
I don’t think I’ve ever been compelled to do anything before in my life. I am easily discouraged and tend to see all the negative things that can come with each and every decision. This is not something I’m proud of.
It’s been right at a full year now since I decided that maybe I should open up my Bible again and see what God has to say. This I am proud of. I’ve been a Christian since I was a child, but wasn’t really seeking out God or living a very Christian life. I haven’t been a bad person, but I guess I wasn’t really good either.
So I started reading my Bible each night, starting with the New Testament. Each night I would try to read just one chapter. I asked God to open up my mind before I would read so that I might hear any thing that he wanted me to hear from the Scriptures. Not every night would I be amazed or fully enlightened, but some nights I would read just what I needed at that moment. I can honestly say that the Holy Ghost is working inside of me and that I am striving to be who Jesus wants me to be each day.
I’ve had this feeling that God wants me to do some sort of work for him, to share his light. I’ve prayed and prayed that it would come to me and that I would KNOW that this is the right thing that he wants me to be a part of. Nothing showed up. Then one night when I was trying to sleep, something told me that I should start a Christian blog. I love to read other people’s blogs, and even started my own once. It was a free gardening blog and after a month or so, when it seemed that no one had found my blog and I was the only person reading (proof-reading!) it, I quit. No surprise there – I’m easily discouraged, remember?
But this time God wants me to do it for real – even if it seems that no one is reading it. I got out of bed that night and jotted down some ideas. I decided to use some of my upcoming Christmas money to actually purchase a domain name. That is real commitment for me! I decided that I was going to set a goal for myself: blog at least once a week for one year for God. This is my commitment.
It blesses me to put my heart and soul out here and maybe it will bless you too.
King James Version (KJV)
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ